A Farrago of Sentiments


Can't find my way around this house
The rooms are continually rearranged,
Every morning I wake with the sun
More and more I feel further estranged;

A copy of the floor plans, I copped
All the lines on the print were blue,
So I keep playing this blind man's bluff
While I continue to wear two left shoes.

The animals rely on instinctive intellect
To perform their duties in this world,
While I must subscribe to hit and miss
In order to have my role unfurlled;

Climbing trees with red herrings as leaves
Entering caves of suspicion with a strobe,
Sailing questioning seas with concentric currents
Searching for home on an anamorphic globe.

The books I've read, poems I wrote
All in the name of defining the ego,
If they were to tell me what and why
Their messages have all gone incognito;

Looked to the sky and wondered why
The answers couldn't pour down as rain,
No use in asking assorted gods for help
I don't want to know Andromeda's strain.

Still I sit within a room of open doors
Each one as jet-black dark as the next,
Besides them all is a book of directions
It's written in Confidence-- I can't read the text;

Slowly spinning, deciding which way to ad-lib
Any step I attempt might well be my last,
So, I recommend to myself to do nothing
Keep hidden, wait for this moment to pass.

Haven't found my place in the working-class
Would never let some job define me,
Maybe it's because I retreated from them
Before responsibility set sight upon me;

Pink-slips or conflicts were never a problem
Unless you count the ones from within,
Always looked over my shoulder for eyes
People make so many judgements with them.

Is satisfaction truly within the grasp
Of those seeking this holiest grail,
Some will have reached its golden rim
While most will fall short of failure;

For me, satisfaction will never exist
So, maybe I'll get the next best thing,
Go out and claim the ceiling and floor
That finding some meaning will bring.


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